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Monday, January 29, 2007

The Death of a Champion


In case you haven't heard, Barbaro, the winner of the 2006 Kentucky Derby was put down this morning after a nearly nine month struggle for survival.

Barbaro broke has right rear ankle just yards from the gate of the Preakness Stakes last May and an injury that would have ended most horses lives that day put him on a great journey of struggle and survival.

That journey ended this morning when after complications with his ankle it was determined that it was best to end Barbaro's suffering.

I can only image the loss the owners, trainers and vets who have loved and cared for Barbaro over this past 9 months feel. I have pets and have had to make the difficult decision to end their lives here, to put an end to their suffering and pain, in a hope that they will rest easy.

Growing up in New York, my family had two cats, Tiger and Whiskers. They were both outside cats and often got themselves in trouble. When Whiskers was about 5 years old, one cold winter morning, she was hiding under a recently driven car. The engine was warm and it was away from the wind.

My dad had returned home because he forget something and was quickly back into the car and started it when he heard the thud. Backing the car up he saw the cat lying in the middle of the driveway, not dead, but seriously injured. She had been sitting on a ledge by the radiator of the car and when the engine started she jumped down hitting the engine fan on her way down.
My dad immediately grabbed her wrapped her in a blanket and was off the the vet. She had to have her right ear removed and part of her tail had been cut off by the fan. And so we had a one eared cat with half a tail. A few years later, Whiskers came to the back door with a month full of blood. We don't now exactly what happened to her, but our best guess is she was hit by a motorcycle. Off to the vet again. This time she had to have her jaw wired shut. We had to hand feed her for a month. But she survived.

She would often come home cut, scraped, and who knows what else, but it seemed she always found a way to survive. Her brother, Tiger, and yes they were litter mates, was just as rough. He seemed to enjoy picking fights with the raccoons and other neighborhood cats, he usually won.

It seemed the only thing he couldn't beat was a car, or so we thought. One morning my neighbor ran our doorbell (by this time I was at college). He had found Tiger lying the the middle of our front lawn. He was not moving his back legs and looked to be in pretty bad shape. So again my dad grab a blanket and rushed off the the vet. By a strange set of circumstances I was planning on being home from college that weekend, and when I received the call from my mom that Tiger (who had always been my cat) was severely injured and might not live through the night, I immediately left for the 7 hour drive home. I met my dad at the vet's office and their was Tiger, bright eyed and purring like there was no tomorrow (which might have been truer then he ever knew). The vet explained to me and my dad his chances and what was wrong with him. The car (or whatever hit him) shattered his right knee and dislocated and broke his left hip. At the time of the accident Tiger was 12 years old. We were faced with the decision to put him down or try to literally rebuild him. The vet suggested we wait until morning.

The next morning we called the vet. We decided that in his best interest,we would put him down, but to our surprise the vet was quite optimistic about Tiger. He told us that during the night Tiger had managed to role himself over, something he should not have been able to do given his condition. His appetite was also good, as was his spirit. He purred loudly whenever anyone would enter the room. With this new knowledge we decided to go ahead and have the surgery to rebuild his hind quarters.

After a long surgery and months of rehab, Tiger lived a fairly normal life. He was able to jump, run (although at 13 years old and an indoor cat now running was way to much exertion!) and harass his sister Whiskers! The outdoors became a safe haven for Whiskers and she spent much of her time their. Tiger enjoyed his life of luxury inside.
Then one raining day in January, I had finished college and was living at home for a year, I saw Whiskers lying on the back porch in the rain. It seemed odd, because she really didn't like to get wet. I went outside with a towel and realized that she had passed on. After all the crazy things that this cat had been through, she just died quietly on the back porch. We buried her in the backyard.

Tiger on the other hand, wasn't done yet. He went on to live with my brother in North Carolina for another 6 years. He became the patriarch of their multi-cat family. Then one day he to quietly passed on.

By this time I had moved to Wisconsin. There I was adopted by a cat named Jig. Jig was an unusual cat and had a strange story. She was "cat-napped" on a mission trip in the Upper peninsula of Michigan and was living with a friend of mine in Wisconsin. When I first moved to Wisconsin I stayed at my friends house until I got an apartment. Jig immediately took a liking to me. She always slept in the guest bed with me. During the night she would steal my glasses and hide them. It was really pretty funny watching this cat run around the house with my glasses in her mouth. When I would come home from work, Jig would be waiting for me at the door. When I finally got my own apartment my friend offer me Jig. How could I refuse!

Jig was not what I would call a social creature. In fact even though she never left the house and was strictly an indoor cat, there would be days when I would not see her. The only evidence that she did not get locked out of the house would be her emptied food bowl. She would hide under the bed when I had guests over, but at night when I would watch TV or be reading, she would sit in my lap, just purring away.
Jig enjoyed playing with golf tees and playing cards. She would caring them around the house, toss them in the air, and chase after them. One time after Patsy and I had moved to Minneapolis, a bird had gotten into our house (probably down the chimney). The bird would fly from one room to the next with two cats a two dogs close behind. It was Jig who finally figured out that if she sat in the middle of the living room the bird would fly by and she could grab it. And sure enough, she jumped nearly five feet stright up from a dead stop and plucked that bird right out of the air. Oddly enough she didn't kill it. Instead she carried it to the basement until Patsy came and took it from her.

My wife still jokes me that I loved that cat more then I love her. I try a assure her that is absurd. Two years ago I had to put Jig down. She had a tumor in her chest. It went undetected because of were it was. In fact we only discovered it when the cancer started to effect other parts of here body. So on all Saints Day, I drove her to our vet and put her out of her suffering. I held her in my arms as life left her body. It was an odd feeling. She was nervous to be at the vet's office (it was never a good experience for her), she sat in my lap like she always did and as I watch her last breath I cried.

It's strange the way we can bond with animals and how they can bond with us.

Jig the Cat and I spent 11 wonderful years together. I love my other pets as well and know that when time comes for us to part it will be just as difficult for me.

I know it must have been difficult for the owners of a Champion like Barbaro.
Good bye Barbaro. May you always find green pastures and run like the wind!

Friday, January 26, 2007

Keeping it simple

So, it's January 26, and this is my first blog of the year, so much for blogging every Monday. But I think I've found my problem. I sit down to blog and feel like I need to say something deep and profound when I realized two things are true, first there are very few if anybody reading this and something I learned in High School, KISS, Keep it simple stupid.

Okay, simple, how about a little bit about me. everyone loves to talk about themselves and I'm no different. Here are some Matt facts that you probably didn't know and may not want to!

Name: Matthew David Cesare

Born: February 11, 1971 around 9 in the morning.

Parents: Julius and Carolyn (yea that means I'm the son of Julius Cesare)

Siblings and such: 2 brothers both older. Mark married to Jennifer, two kids Steven (step son) and Christiana. Micheal married to Marina (I like that he kept the "M" theme going) one daughter from previous marriage, Nicolette.

As for me I'm married to a beautiful women, her name is Patricia (Patsy) and I have two dogs and the most evil cat in the world. (Alright she's not completely evil, just mostly evil.)

I have lived in 5 different states full time and 1 part time.

The farthest I've been from home is Ventimiglia, Italy.

The furthest North - Edinburgh, Scotland
West - Portola, CA
South - Puerto Rico

I have not crossed the equator, although I hope to.

I prefer Coke products over Pepsi, and will decline a Pepsi product if offered.

I enjoy reading, computers, and most recently woodworking. (Wow that sounds geeky.)

I often type my thoughts in parenthetical clauses (and it really annoys some people, especially my college English prof.)

I believe that I am a compassionate conservative. Not to get too political but I believe all people have an equal right to live and work and survive, but it is not the government's responsibility to give hand outs, that's our job as Christians. (if you're a Christian, if not, we should talk...)

I think the wealthiest people in America are paid too much, and the poorest not enough.

I live in the suburbs and hate it, I'd rather live either in the country or the city.

Well, that's it for today. Simple.

Peace.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

New Year's Resolutions

So another year is here. Big deal, right? Well maybe it should be. One of the great things about being human is are ability to "start-over". Not actually start life over, but we can begin tasks again, and a great time to do that is the New Year. It seems to give us a clean slate, a fresh calendar to check off the days (whether we succeed or fail) and so is born the New Year's Resolutions. Things we hope to change about our lives in the upcoming year.

Goal setting is such an important part of life, whether those goals be big or small. I believe that we must have something to shoot for, otherwise we're shooting at nothing and my experience is that when we shoot at nothing someone usually gets hurt. So set some goals and go for it. Goal setting is entirely another blog, so I won't get into all the details here, but for now just get some ideas down, things maybe you want to change, or add, or subtract from your life. I always like to think big, but somethings can be small.

Now I have to admit that for the past several years I have not made any resolutions, mostly because I felt it was a little bit pointless. What made the New Year so special, I can set goals anytime of year (and often did). But New Years does give us that feeling of a clean slate, so in 2007 my first resolution is to make some resolutions! I've actually decided to set for myself 10 resolutions.

Some of these are big and some are small, some will take place and be over, others will hopefully continue on into future years. Some are very specific and some are just thoughts that I'll have to hammer out details to later. They are in no particular order, time wise or other wise, they are pretty much just as I thought of them. Some have an explanations, some don't. So here they are (I'm sure you can hardly wait) my 2007 New Year's Resolutions!

1. (as previously stated) Write resolutions!

2. Learn and do Tai Chi at least 4 times a week. Christmas of 2005 a friend of mine gave me a Tai Chi DVD and all year I said I was going to start doing it. Well it's 2007 and I haven't started yet. That changes today.

3. Love my wife more. Not that I don't love her a lot now, but I want to find even more ways to express my love to her. This year we will celebrate our 10 year anniversary.

4. Read through the bible.

5. Meet with a mentor twice a month. This is also one of those things I have wanted to do for awhile, so this year I'm committing to it.

6. Read at least 24 new books (or at least new to me)

7. Clean my car and office more often. To say "more often" isn't really fair, that implies that I clean my car and office now. I suppose I should just say "clean my car and office!" And try to keep them clean. (HA!)

8. Make one new friend.

9. Blog once a week. Every Monday morning look here for a new Blog and even if you don't look, I'll be blogging away.

10. Go to Paris, France. As I mentioned earlier, it's my wife and I's 10 year Anniversary and pretty much since we've been married we have wanted to go to Paris. We have had two opportunities through business, and both fallen through. So this year we're going (I hope!)

So there you have it. 10 things that I resolve to accomplish in 2007. Hey one down, 9 to go!

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